A Story To Cherish

For the past few months, Chris and I have been struggling financially. We are trying to save for our wedding, and every time we seem to save more than a few dollars, something comes up and our savings get spent. Today, for example, Chris had to go to the hospital because he couldn’t breathe. Four hours later, he came home with a diagnosis of severe bronchitis and 4 prescriptions to fill. Well, 3 of those cost over $75 that we weren’t counting on having to spend this month (the fourth alone cost over $200. definitely not in the cards this month so we haven’t been able to fill it.)

We’ve been talking more and more about moving away from our home (both of us have spent the majority of our lives in southern California) in hopes of finding somewhere where the economy is doing a little better and the cost of living is a little lower so we can start to get ourselves out of this hole we are unfortunatley in. The mostly likely candidate for this move would be Denver, Colorado. I won’t lie to you, I find the possibility of picking up with my fiancé and starting over more exciting than I can really explain. I love the idea of having our own place and turning it into a home. I know that he’ll be able to find better work out there than he can out here and I hope to score a job that I can use my skills in that I love. We want to be able to save money so we can actually have the wedding we both want.

It all sounds amazing. However, it does scare the crap out of me a little bit too. I’ve never lived away from home without a parent before. I know that’s a little silly, but I just haven’t been able to get on my feet enough where I can confidently commit to taking on rent and my parents haven’t gotten fed up and told me to hit the road… yet. However, since my mother recently remarried, she and her new husband have decided that they want to sell our home (since it was purchased while my parents were still married). My mother keeps on making decisions without consulting the rest of her family and as a result has alienated all of us.

When fighting to survive, evolution is inevitable. We all do it. We make the changes we need to in order to survive.
I know that Chris and I will make it through this. Through all of the hard times, we lean on each other.
I can’t wait to become his wife and start our journey together. He makes me happy.